Jeshua's Blog

Today, after a few years, I was finally influenced to create a blog page, which only took most of my college student money, which is already a limited resource, but why start a blog as a debby downer? I truly expect to be able to rant and talk about what’s on my mind.

Today’s topic: Feeling useless in comparison to every other STEM major.

So much for not starting off as a debby downer. Anyway, my roommate’s been my best friend since 2nd grade and has already gotten experience in his electrical engineering major. On top of that, he has friends who I went to high school with who were a year under me, yet both are CS majors with plenty of projects under their belts, and one is already employed. It’s impressive, and I’m glad for them, but honestly, it’s disheartening to personally feel so bland compared to others. I truly want to achieve more and wish I could’ve gone back and done more projects or entered more groups and attended more hackathons, but as my old dormmate once said, “Comparison is the killer of joy.”

I have to tell myself there’s no reason to live in the past, and I have to begin doing something with my career/life. This blog is hopefully the very beginning of that change. Hopefully, I can get myself together and be not just ready but also content with my life.

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